Mental illness

Everyday a constant struggle. You fight and fight but you never win, you lose every single time and you don't know why. until you realize, you are sick. But not just any type of sick like having a fever, a rash, a stuffy nose, a horrible cough. No, this is the sickness that no one can see, you can only feel it. it's worse than having a fever, rash, a stuffy nose or a horrible cough. You are physically tired; tired not even the right word, you are exhausted. you feel alone in a crowded room. You isolate yourself from other people. You feel numb & alone. You want other people to notice your pain but you don't know how to show it. You want help but you don't know how to ask for it. You wish someone would just do a nice gesture towards you for once. But no, you hide it from everyone, you secretly want people to see but at the same time you want to keep it hidden. You don't want people thinking you're crazy or something. You want to be normal and fit in but the mental illness is keeping you from it.
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after everything you've been through, you deserve to get roses on your doorstep. You deserve to be looked up to. You deserve all the happiness in the world. you deserve to love someone and be loved backed. you got this. You may think you're alone but so many people are feeling what you're feeling. There is someone around you that's feeling the same pain you are feeling they just don't show it. You're not alone.

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Sending you my LOVE

Something we are all going to have to go through in life is heartbreak. Heartbreak is probably the worse pain anyone can go through, whether if its from a boyfriend/girlfriend, friend, or a family member, it's still painful.

You will go through the "hate" phase of the breakup. You will hate them, but you don't, but at the same time you kinda do. You hate them because they made you hate yourself, you hate them for giving up on you, you hate them for giving you false hope, you will hate them for pretending, hate them fort not caring, you will hate them for not checking up on you, no matter how you felt or how it made you look.  You will hate them for taking up your time, all the wasted time. You will hate them for making you believe they were different. You will hate them but still care for them at the same time.

Let me tell you, from experience, Its going to be alright, these painful days/nights will eventually pass. You will get out of this, stronger than ever. The dark you are in will turn to light, the winter in your heart will turn to spring. And also, remember, they don't deserve your sadness, they shouldn't control your happiness. You're strong enough to pass through this hell with a smile.

Blessed

I am a very blessed to call myself a happy person but let me tell you, I was not always a happy girl.
Believe me when I say, I know what its like to go to school and feel so alone in a crowed hallway. I know what its like being dumped by the guy I could of sworn I was in love with at the time. I know what it's like coming home, locking myself in my room and breaking down and crying, I know what its like to lose your best friend, I know what its like being bullied by people you use to call good friends, I know what its like having bruises and scars on your body. But let me tell you something, you maybe not believe me now but one day you will see that it all gets better. You will be grateful like I am going through all that crap because all it did was make you a stronger person. Also, the scars on your wrist, the tears in your eyes, and the pain in your heart don't define who you are, 'cause trust me darling, I'm right there with you. If I am strong enough to get through this, you are too.

17 years of living and I already have a bunch to share with you. On here I will share my weekly activities, my story of what I had to go through, some advice and on time to time you will see random stuff. Enjoy(: