Stick Together

Girls are known to constantly judge each other.  A girls day usually consist of talking about the person that they strongly dislike with their boyfriends or their group of friends. That used to be me. I used to judge the girls that I do not like all the time. I would tell my boyfriend at the time how much they bug me, how their presence just annoyed me. Honestly I'm so ashamed of that. I am so ashamed that I judge such wonderful people. 

When I left my old school, I decided to make a huge change in my life. I'm going to stay away from all kinds of drama. I am not going to judge other girls or anyone in fact until I get to know them. And I'm going to forgive the people that hurt me and at my old school. Today I was talking to this girl who now I consider a friend, she's my ex boyfriends new ex-girlfriend. I use to judge her because I was jealous of her. But then when I left the school I decided not to hold a grudge against people anymore I decided to forgive and in ways that girl hurt me so I decided to forgive her. I reached out to her last night and I told her how pretty she was. She said that we should hang out soon and honestly I mean me feel so bad because I judged her when I didn't even know her. 

I had a great conversation with her this morning, she is honestly one of the best human beings that I have ever met. 

Girls, we need to stick together, guys are going to do is any good in the end. That girl that you hated last year will probably be your best friend in a few years.so I challenge you to reach out to the girl Who you are not a big fan to get to know them, get to know their story. You'll probably be surprised. I know I was. Forgive and maybe this time you should forget it. We all need to stick together at the end of the day we're all we got. 

I struggle;

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I struggle; I struggle with waking up in the morning with a positive attitude. I struggle with my weight; loving my body, I struggle with staying positive when everything is crashing down, I struggle with keeping my friends close, I struggle with showing my family my love for them. I struggle with school, making friends, showing my loves for others.

We all struggle. It's part of life. But you know what we all got to do? Is kick out butts and show the world, it's got nothing on us. It took me so long to be where I am today, it took me 9 years. It was certainly a long 9 years kicking my butt, pushing through all the pain, all the urges to hurt myself, all the sleepless nights, all long days. But look how far I've come, I know you will come far in life too. I know you can push through the pain and everything and become a more of a remarkable person.  Stay positive & stay kind & keep kicking butt. I'm proud of you!

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This weekend I got to spend time with my friends and family in a long time. I use to be so busy with school and work, that I never got to see my family or friends. This weekend, I realized a lot new things. I got to learn more about my little sisters. What the like to do in their free time, what artist they like, etc. I also got to joke around with my parents which felt so good. One thing I realized, I am so loved, loved beyond words. I always knew I was love, but this weekend, I was able to feel their love. Just by the little things they did for me. It is so important to spend time with your friends and family. If you have a busy schedule, try to find at least a half hour to spend time with your family. If you have a hard time getting along with your parents or your siblings, call a friend, ask them to lunch or if they just want to come over and take. Really take sometime to discover new things about them. I promise you, it will make you feel so good. Spend some quality time with the ones you love.




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My story

June 9,2012
••• on that day, I was playing a soccer game, it was arena soccer. I don't remember much of the day in fact I don't remember that at all. I don't remember waking up that morning, I don't remember getting ready for my soccer game that morning. In that soccer game I got tripped, broke the fall with my head and got a terrible concussion. The next thing I knew or well remember from the day is waking up in an ambulance with flashing light into my eyes and shouting my name. I didn't know where I was who I was or what the hell had happened. I remember feeling is numb, I couldn't feel my legs, and I couldn't feel my hands. The paramedic was asking me a load of questions that I should of known that answer to. And I got to the hospital not knowing anything a lady walked into the room and said hey sweetie, I had no idea she was. I was so scared I didn't remember anything that had happened to me I didn't know who the lady was who ended up being my mother, I didn't know who my siblings were I didn't know any of my family I forgot all my friends forgot what school I went to and forgot what my name was and who I was. From that day I didn't remember anything I didn't remember 13 years of life. So yes, I can say I was able to start my life over, I may not of known anyone that I knew who they were in my heart. Yes losing my memory was scary but it was also the greatest blessing I have ever received. I got to start over, I got to meet new friends, I got to re-create myself and who I wanted to be. It was hard, it was scary but but if I had to go back to that day I would still play that game, the one that caused me to lose all my memory. People think my depression started from my accident but really who is depressed since third grade, you see I kept a journal, that apparently I wrote in every day, I was bullied I had major depression. No I don't remember it but I surely felt all the sadness when I woke up in ambulance. Every day since that day has been a constant struggle, there are some days where I can't even wake up, can't even get out of bed and function right, I don't have a lot of friends because for me it's so hard making friends. I don't fit in it's school and I learned to be okay with that. I have about 4 friends at school and I'm okay with that. Just because I've suffered from depression & lost my memory doesn't make me any less of a person.